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[08 May 2005|09:44pm] |
someone please kill me.
i hate this town, i hate my life, junior year sucks ass.
friday was the ap, saturday sat II's, 3 projects, 2 tests monday...when do i ever get a break?...
i don't. all this drama bullshit is getting to me. i haven't worked in 3 weeks because i've been so busy, i have no money; at this rate i'm never getting a car. i wanted to go to costa rica over the summer with liz to build houses for 2 weeks but i can't because i'll miss drivers ed. fuckfuckfuck. all i do is work and i NEVER get rewarded. i can't even go to my boyfriends prom because i have the math regent the next morning. i'm missing out on life because my life is school. my relationships with everyone are affected because i've been so stressed out lately i've been depressed...and besides the fact that i've been drugged up for the past week, and i have a month and a half left of this shit, i'm not myself. i lost my personality and my ability to have fun.
okay i'm done complaining now, i swear.
6 weeks left and i'm done with this hell.
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i haven't updated in months..
but i just planned out my schedule for next year & it sucks so bad
ap macro
ap gov't & politics
physics
college pre calc
syracuse english
syracuse spanish
ap psyc (maybe)
g'vt and society in the 60's & 70's
and i thought i was gonna have an easy year...arghhh
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x]last cigarette: not in several months
[x]last kiss: yesterday<33333
[x]last good cry: ummm i'm not even sure. probably over the weekend..but i cry a lot hah
[x]last movie seen:saw with matttyyy and his friends
[x]last book read: the scarlet letter
[x]last cuss word uttered: shitfuck
[x]last beverage drank: coffee
[x]last food consumed: peas...lmao. i'm weird i know..frozen peas are my favorite thing in the world.
[x]last phone call:matthew last night
[x]last tv show watched: not sure hehe
[x]last time showered: last night
[x]last shoes worn: my black onesssssssssss
[x]last cd played: led zeppelin-remastered
[x]last item bought: oreos :-P
[x]last soda drank: i hate soda haha
[x]last thing written: "haha"
[x]last key used: enter
[x]last word spoken: "have a good weekend" (i know that's a phrase not a word)
[x]last sleep: 8th period haha
[x]last im: diekmann
[x]last ice cream eaten: uhmm white chocolate moose from tcby mmm my favorite
[x]last time dancing: haha probs jenny's sweet 16
[x]current hair: curly "pony tail"
[x]current thing i should be doing: doing homework
[x]current desktop picture: clouds
[x]current refreshment: coffee
[x]What do you most like about your body?: uhmmm idk. my eyes i guess? they change c olor
[x]And least?: lol a lot
[x]Do you think you're good looking?: naw
LOVE, and all that
(167) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: nopeeeee
(168) Do you remember your first love?: i'm in love with my first love now
(169) Still love him/her?: yesss
(170) Do you consider love a mistake?: no..i consider it an experience.
(171) What do you find romantic?: when a guy plans something special for the day. cuddeling, listening to music together, going to the beach and chasing deer <3 haha
(172) Turn-on?: eyes, kisses, good music, niceness, sense of humor, the abillity to have a good convorsation (aka matt) haha
(173) Turn-off?: assholes
(174) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: nope
(175) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: i would feel flattered but then id feel bad
(177) Are you in love?: yes i ammm
(178) Do you consider your significant other hot?: yes and i love him very much
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: uhm...i don't know?
(212) You wanted to kill?: the jappy girl that was deciding why you can't eat potatos raw
(213) That you laughed at?: justine after she told me she was reading in class and she accidently said "stripping chickens"instead of starving chlidren hahah
(214) That laughed at you?: idk? lauren i think
(216) You went shopping with?: my matthew<3 sunnday i bought about 51 cds haha (it took me practicly the whole day)
(218) To disappoint you?: idk i think myself
(219) To ask you out?: mattttttheeeeeeewwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!! (10 months ago friday!!wowow)
(220) To make you cry?: not sure..i don't really remember
(221) To brighten up your day?: mattyyy
(222) That you thought about?: uhm matt haha
(223) You saw a movie with?: matt roger & brian
(224) You talked to on the phone?: ha matt
(225) You talked to through IM?: diekmann
(226) You saw?: my mommy
(227) You lost?: my grandma =[
(229) You thought was completely insane?: haha probs carissa but I LOVE YOU
(230) You wanted to be?: myself?
(231) You told off?: i honestly don't remember. i think my sister yesterday
(232) You trusted?: i only trust one person...matt
(233) You turned down?: ...
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: like 30 min ago on the bus
(235) Laughed?: same time
(236) Cried?: not sure...sunday i think
(237) Bought something: sunday...i got the new apc cd tool zeppelin NIN and beatles cds
(239) Were sarcastic?: haha everyday
(240) hugged someone?: uhmmm i think today i hugged jenny
(241) Talked to an ex?: not sure
(242) Watched your fave movie?: i don't know if a i have a favorite movie...
(243) Had a nightmare?: don't remember
(245) Talked on the phone?: last night
(246) Listened to the radio?: in the car yesterday
(247) Watched TV?: sunday? idk
(248) Went out?: i went to school earlier today?
(249) Helped someone?: this morning
(250) Were mean?: i don't think for a whlie
(251) Sang?: i'm singing now haha
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: last sunday
(253) Said "I love you"?: this morninggggggggggggggg
(254) Missed someone?: today=[
(255) Fought with a family member?: i think yestyerday i fought with liz. she gets mad cuz i don't put the cap on the toothpaste. who does that?
(256) Fought with a friend?: sunday (i love you anyway)
(257) Had a serious conversation?: um like an hour ago
(258) Got drunk?: june or july i think
(259) Had sex?: pshhhh i'm a virgin :-P
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grrr i don't know what happened to my past entry. i didnt even get a chance to check my comments =[. if you wanna comment again that would be really nice<3
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( fun night<3 )
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heyaaa. yeah..once again i have failed to update for quite some time. oh well..
my summer has been filled with seeing friends, hanging out with matt..and just chilling. i saw 311 and incubus this summer..which was cool. unfortunatly i missed the warped tour & finch show..but i just didnt have the money for it. i also turned 16 so that means i can drive LEGALLY wooohoo. i've been driving for 2 weeks..and although i have made a few people fear for their lives..i have yet to hit anything (besides a curb or 4). although this summer has been pretty boring..i've realized a lot of things about myself and about the people i surround myself with. i've learned to appreciate my family a lot more, and i've figured out more or less what makes a good friendship. but anway..my sweet 16 was a ton of fun...if you want pics just click the link in my profile..afireinside730. but me..being the dumbass i am..forgot to hand out the party favors..woopssss. haha. but my party was for the most part the way i had envisioned it to be...i didn't want anything big..i wanted to besurrounded by a few good friends and family. i got all of that PLUS i got to play all my music and i felt very special the whole night. matt managed once again to be an amazing person and turned my birthday into a fun day on the beach..after going to breakfast and getting completely sick from eating too much..then going out to dinner for seafood at night. it was all i could have asked for & more. thank you so much...i love you more & more each waking day..happy 7 months.
matt got really bored & made this picture which i find quite amusing (and somewhat embarrassing)
i hope that entertained some of you..
...also shows off the amazing talent matt has at graphic design.
i'm deffinatly not looking foward to school..but i've promised myself to comit to my schoolwork a little bit more than i have in the past.
...well...that's all for now. leave comments <333
-kris
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[20 Jul 2004|11:50pm] |
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yeah..changed my icon because i feel like i looked like a bug in the other one =]
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[20 Jul 2004|11:31pm] |
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heyaaa..i had an awesome few weeks. well yeah, i went to san fransisco..it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. i have to post pictures if i ever figure out how to use my scanner. but yeah, it was so much fun...i want to eventually move there one day...the apartments are perfect but expensive =/. i miss my digital camera =[ the summer is going pretty good...i haven't really hung out with the girls a lot and i miss them and want to see them more. i especially miss my jenny who i haven't seen in years=[ but my birthday is coming up soon..and my sweet 16..i'm so excited. i'm gonna go try to figure out how to reinstall my speakers cuz i'm dying without music.
i love you so much matt <3
3-11 july 25th! sooo excited
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[05 Jul 2004|08:20pm] |
so i got back my regents and all that shtuff..i was pretty satisfied with my grades i guess..i thought i did a hell of a lot worse
spanish-100
math-97
english-A
soc-97
science-93
and that's all for now..
later kiddies
i love my matt so much
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[30 Jun 2004|08:32pm] |
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hola kidlets..haven't updated in years..my computer decided to be gay and die so yeah. summer...finally. dying to find out my grades from school =/ but our school has a gay ass fucking policy that they're not allowed to give out grades. whatever..i hope they burn. anyways..ashley's sweet 16 was a ton of fun..=] saw incubus..AMAZING i lovvvvvvvveeee brandon boyd (if you can't tell)=] and i'm going to the hamptons hopefully this weekend with jenn joe & matt. then off to san fransisco with mommyyy..not looking foward to that but whateverr....
i'm gonna gooo chill with my matty <33
-kriiss
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its ash updating for kris..i love her and jill and i had a fun sleepover with kris
she doesnt know im updating for her so i have to go walk around the block before she notices moi ah shes coming i gottar un toodlers children!
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yeahh so. i haven't updated in forever cuz i've been pretty sick.. i gotta get more blood taken and all unfortunatly. i hate needles =/.
but other than that, things ahve been pretty okay..except i'm stressed out due to school and all. whatever..only 19 more days then finals.
i'm excited..this weekend i was invited to go to the hamptons by jenny and joe, and matt's going also. i'm soo psyched cuz i know it's gonn abe an amazing time..that is if my mom let's me go. hopefully that won't be a problem..
and i saw apc last weekend..amazing show..the best one i've ever been too. except some asshole stole my camera (die die die). whatever..i'll get a new one..no biggie. then i went to jenny's sweet 16 in the city which was soo fun =]. i love my jenny and i can't wait til summer..hopefully we'll be at the beach every day like last year. haha i love you jenny.
well...i gotta go finish a 6 page research essay..loads of fun.
i love you matt <3
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Yeah so. busy couple of days ahead of me
Friday
- A Perfect Circle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYY!!!! soo excited.
- Jenny's birthdayyy!! eee happy birthday!
Saturday
- Chillin with Mattt <3
- Jenny's Sweet 16 at night
Sunday
- GAHH Work 1-6 =/
- Chillin with Matt hopefully after
yeah nevermind, it seemed like a lot but not so much anymore haha. but i haven't been in school for days because i'm sick =/. i'm gonna have a lot of makeup work to do unfortunatly..oh well.
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[02 May 2004|09:26pm] |
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i want more than anything in the world to be able to be happy for long periods of time. i don't know what's wrong with me. i have everything i could possibly want. i just wish things that happened last year and the begining of this never did..
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[02 May 2004|09:02pm] |
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i hate people so much. i can't even begin.
stop fucking pretending to be someone you're not. fake people piss me off. no one knows what it's like to want something so bad, to anticipate it for years..save money for it, then other stupid people get it from their mommy's and daddy's...when they don't even like it that much. just because they're from syosset and they're entitled to everything. i really need to fucking get out of here and get away from the people i despise.
this is the exact reason i stopped writing in my blurty, because i always manage to get myself into trouble. whatever..i needed to get it off my mind. i can't let these kinds of things bother me like this anymore. but anyways.. thank god i have matt
MotoXMM125: just be happy ure getting to see them
MotoXMM125: and in the end thats all that matters
he always let's me see the bright sides to things=] i love you baby <3
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yeah..went to the dr today. they don't know what's wrong with me.
if i died would you attend my funeral? haha
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i just realized today how much i despise school. i just need to get this year over with already. and on top of my extreme hatred towards school and work, lately my heart has been beating really fast and it's freaking me out. (maybe it's because i'm in love <333 hehe). no but really, i don't want to die haha. can you die from that? it's the strangest thing ever and it's been like this since sunday night. ehh whatever.
so after this week i'm gonna be pretty busy. friday i'm going to adventure land with my buds and matty. then next week i have the mama mia show with chorus weds, a perfect circle show friday, then JENNY'S SWEET 16 SATURDAY!! YAYYYY SOOO EXCITED! today i got to miss 6-9 period because we had holocaust survivors come into the school and speak about their experiences and all. they all made amazing presentations about what they went through when they were all around our age, but of course the assholes in syosset still giggled and whispered during the whole presentatoin. it really astounded me how uncaring, selfish and inconsiderate some people are. i mean, here are these old people who are speaking about something that affected history profoundly, and they didn't even have the courtesy to stop talking about their fuckign prada bags for two minutes to stop and listen to something that's of actual importance. it took a lot of courage to get up in front of a whole group of strangers and speak about how they witnessed their mothers, fathers, siblings and friends dieing right in front of their faces, and people don't even respect them.
oh how i love syosset.
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[25 Apr 2004|08:48pm] |
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